Sebastian thought he had to start over. He had no other choice. After his partner stole all their money and disappeared his past due rent was getting bigger and so was his almost maxed credit cards.
Then out of blue he met a guy, Andrew, and when Andrew heard about his problems he said it wouldn’t be a problem to lend him the sum that was just about right.
It was actually more than he needed for covering the debts and he was able to open a new company.
Unfortunately it was a terrible time for business. His company went broke soon. And it turned out Andrew wasn’t the guy’s real name. Perhaps it was Andrei, or Andi, or… something else. It turned out he had a lot of friends and at least half of them were behind bars or wanted by the FBI.
Sebastian started getting visits, emails and phone calls from random people. With serious threats concerning himself and his family.
And then a miracle happened! Grace, Sebastian’s wife, met a close friend she hadn’t seen in years. It turned out the friend got married to an incredibly rich guy and when she found out about Sebastian’s problem, she didn’t take no for an answer, just cut the check for all the money that was owed.
Sebastian cashed the check and brought the money to Andrei.
Andrey seemed happy. He opened his safe, put all the money inside and looked at Sebastian.
– All right, I forgive you your debt – said Andrei
– Say what? – Sebastian thought he didn’t understand
– I forgive you your debt – repeated Andrei
– What debt? – Asked Sebastian – I had one debt with you and I just paid it off
– I don’t know where that money came from, if it was stolen or whatever, but it doesn’t matter now, I told you – your debt is forgiven! I’m a good guy! By the way, can we be friends now? You haven’t introduced me to your wife and kids yet!
Sebastian didn’t understand anything Andrei said. Forgiven debt? Good guy? Andrei had threatened to break all his bones.
Stop for a second. Read what Andrei had just said one more time. Does it make any sense at all?
Nope.
It’s not hard to conclude.
But there is a theory with a very similar logic that is accepted by literally hundreds of millions of people.
Various theologians call it differently, mostly penal substitution or ransom theory of atonement. It is supposed to explain the reason the sacrifice of the cross took place.
This theory claims that God is infinitely just and can’t just disregard human sin. Humanity is then doomed for eternal punishment (somehow theologians can’t come up with any shorter idea of a punishment) but God finds a way out! Because he is also infinitely merciful and doesn’t want to send all people to hell, he sends Jesus Christ, who sacrifices himself and because he was sinless, God accepts his atonement and declares people justified.
Declares some people justified, to be exact. Vast majority of Churches adds some conditions – like faith, confession, baptism or other things. Makes me wonder why Jesus didn’t fulfill these conditions as well to make it simple because right now it seems very complicated.
Jesus died to justify me – but am I justified already?
Not yet.
The list of conditions… varies tremendously and some Churches change it quite often.
I had believed this theory for lots of years. I preached it to others. I had never questioned the Bible itself or the existence of God but somehow… this theory always produced some kind of anxiety within me.
And I had lots of questions no one knew how to answer. Examples:
- What’s with people who were born before? They can’t fulfill any conditions, for example they can’t believe in Jesus
- What would happen if Jews turned out to love Jesus and he wouldn’t have gotten killed? Would all humanity be doomed?
- How did Jesus bear the punishment we were supposed to be punished with? We were supposed to go hell for eternity; Jesus just dies and came back to life after 3 days.
I won’t try to answer these questions because I don’t think there are answers that make sense
A breakthrough in my life was created when I came up with one more question:
Does God really forgive us anything?
The question may sound shocking. What do I mean “anything”, isn’t God infinitely merciful?
Let’s think for a moment. What’s necessary for one person to forgive another one?
You may think remorse is necessary. Or apologizing. Or restitution.
But it’s not pure forgiveness then.
The definition of forgiveness is to stop feeling angry or resentful toward for an offense.
No conditions.
If someone wronged me and didn’t feel any remorse, I will always then have this angry feeling toward them. I will be hurting myself.
Pure forgiveness can only have condition – a will to forgive.
According to the ransom theory of atonement entire humanity would end up in hell if Jesus hadn’t died.
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Had Jesus not died, we would have been punished.
But it’s not pure forgiveness. Someone did get punished.
If this this “infinite justice”… I think I don’t understand something.
Like in the story about Sebastian and Andrei, nothing is really forgiven. The debt is paid off.
We may be shocked at the attitude of Andrei who speaks of friendship, but what do they teach people in most of Christian churches?
God is merciful! Really? According to religion he doesn’t really forgive anything, he makes someone else pay the debt!
God is our best friend! But as Andrei threatened with breaking Sebastian’s legs, God threatens us with something way worse – being an eternal deep fried human nugget. The threat is still real, by the way, unless we fulfill some conditions like faith or repentance.
I believed this theory but not because I was convinced about its validity, but because I was indoctrinated before I learned to think critically.
This is what happens in most of religious families. Children aren’t really given any choice; they believe everything parents tell them.
Psychology discovered quite recently that our main idea of the world is set when we’re 6 or 7. What’s worst, at this age their abstract thinking doesn’t really exist – when we tell them “if you believe and repent, you will go to heaven after you die” they are not capable to understand any of it – they can just memorize it and it will become deeply engraved in their mind – both its conscious and unconscious part of it – and future changes in unconsciousness usually require therapy.
I went to church since I learned to speak, I attended religious classes since the age of 6, I got totally programmed and this is one of the reasons I struggled for so many years to get rid of these believes.
And there is one more reason it’s usually tough to change the believes you grew up with.
Swimming against the current.
It is extremely hard to change your opinion… when this opinion is not just yours, and almost everyone you know believe the same thing.
When I tell you breathing is not necessary to survive you will reject this idea without a second of hesitation, but not because you understand all about breathing. Even if you had no idea what oxygen is you would simply reject because everyone believes the opposite.
According to my current knowledge necessity of breathing is true and ransom theory is not but millions of people are still convinced they’re both the same true.
It’s hard to swim against the current.
It’s almost impossible to believe “I’m right and they’re all wrong”. Recent discoveries in neurochemistry show us that our brain is programmed to prefer facts which confirm what we already know and get blind to the others. Google Andrew Huberman.
Plus thinking that I know better may seem too prideful, but history teaches us of many cases where entire nations were completely wrong. Think for example of Germany before the World War II. Most people believed Jews were not fully human and deserved to die.
At the time swimming against the current could mean persecutions, including death, so we’ll never know how many people believed Hitler and how many were too scared to open their mouth.
Today you most probably will not get killed if you say you don’t believe in the atonement theory but you may get ostracized by your family or friends. We are made to be social so our brain tries to prevent this from happening, including trying to turn off logical thinking.
I see something in the Bible that is a contradiction to the teachings of the Church I’ve been going to for 30 years and where most of family and friends are? Let’s skip the passage, forget about it and everything will be fine.
Back to the point.
Does God forgive us sins, then, or not?
The awesome truth is… He always has.
Even before Jesus came to this world.
Punishments in Old Testament had nothing to do with God’s love or his attitude toward people. There were making it possible for people to live with each other. They were never about afterlife.
The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; (Exodus 34: 6b-7a)
Compassionate! Abounding in love! And these words were spoken at the time Moses was receiving the commandments!
But the verse ends with speaking of punishment. How come?
Israel had their moral norms pretty steep to be easily distinguished from pagans and the rules and rewards/punishments served the same purpose as today’s police and judiciary system. They were supposed to protect people from others hurting them but they had nothing to do with vengeance and absolutely did not mean God was angry at anyone!
A murdered will be murdered – so that he wouldn’t keep killing.
Luke at Luke (no pun intended)! Friend, your sins are forgiven. (Luke 5:20 b). Jesus didn’t say “Your sins will be forgiven after I am punished in your place”.
What’s also interesting is that Jesus didn’t mention his death on cross until the very end of his mission! In the Gospel of Matthew for example the death is first mentioned in chapter 16 and is a big shock for all listeners (Matthew 16:21 and further). Jesus first came and preached the Kingdom of God – and preached it to Jews only.
One might think…
… that Jesus didn’t come here to die.
Why was then he killed?
The shortest answer – he was killed by a common agreement by Jews and Romans because he his presence was not comfortable for both nations. He undermined the religious authority of Jews and Romans were trying to kill any sign of revolution inside the nations they ruled over.
There is of course a cosmic, infinite reason for the death of Christ. It was an event that shook the Universe.
But I’m not here to tell you why Jesus was killed.
I am here to tell you God didn’t need his death to forgive you sins because God is indeed infinitely merciful, not the pseudo-merciful, the way religion describes him.
People don’t like the idea God can forgive “just like this” because they think he is like them. They create God after their own image.
And one of the reasons Jesus came to this world is to fix these false beliefs.
Jesus didn’t punish anyone. When his disciples wanted to punish people for rejecting Gospel, he rebuked them (Luke 9:52 and further). He loved all people and was especially close to those who were considered “bad”. He preferred to be surrounded by them, rather than by the great righteous people, priests and teachers.
The death of Jesus is an example of an infinite altruism and love. I am not sure if I fully get it but I think I know what it wasn’t. It wasn’t a sacrifice that God the Father required.
God didn’t need a ransom. God has everything. In abundance. He also has love and forgiveness for us –all of us. Because he’s God. And I am proud to believe in such God.
last edited 3/7/2022